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I​’​m Very Upset

by Throw

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1.
Feels like the weight of the world is crashing down all around me, like the forest is burning and I can’t do anything to prevent this from happening . All I can do is stand still. All I can do is stand still and avoid the flames. Feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, I doubt that Atlas complained like me. Why can’t it be like it used to be? When everything went so dark and all I ever did was wait. When everything went so dark and all I ever did was wait on you. There’s shallow seas awaiting me, letting my old self drown. Frozen eternally, watching the sun sink further down. When everything went so dark and all I ever did was wait. When everything went so dark and all I ever did was wait on you
2.
Where are we going, I can’t see straight for the life of me. This road looks abandoned like it hasn’t been ambled in centuries. And all these years that have passed since you told me you were coming right back, that you’d be coming right back. And all these years that I’ve wasted believing you were coming right back, you were coming right back. What makes you think that I would let you back in? What makes you think that I would let you back in again? And all these years that have passed since you told me you were coming right back, that you’d be coming right back. And all these years that I’ve wasted believed you were coming right back, but you never came back. What makes you think that I would let you back in? What makes you think that I would let you back in again?
3.
Crawlspace 01:48
It was last year and I was breaking in my new shoes, taking x-rays. Just watching TV through the window. But my neighbors never noticed, they never noticed me outside. It was last year and I was puking on my new shoes but I never noticed. I tried to call you from my office phone so you wouldn’t know the number but you weren’t home. Woo! But my neighbors never noticed. They never noticed me outside so I crept in and slept in their bed to keep warm for the night. And that’s where they found me, wrapped in our old sheets, not in the crawlspace of their new townhouse where I’d been living...
4.
Colors dance across the sky, mountain summits etch my eyes. Flying rocks and falling leaves, so much to hold onto. Drinking wine from a can, drinking wine with my dad on a boat to Daufuskie. It was a ferry and we were under a dam. In the land of fire, in the land of fire, in the land of fire it’s nice to see some contours. Drinking wine from a can, drinking wine with my dad on a boat to Daufuskie. It was a ferry and we were under a dam. Me and my old man. Drinking wine from a can. Drinking wine with my dad.
5.
I’m not digging Wisconsin, not liking the snow like that. And the runoff from this barley house is giving me a rash, not like the one I had before. And if you like the ice then you’re welcome to come out here and waste your own life. Nobody said it was easy or that it’s easier to die. They say the effort it takes to get to May isn’t worth it. So we abbreviate every step we take, you say it’s really not so hard? Then why don’t you lose your point of view and take your own advice? It’s a start. If it’s good advice then let it all fly and things’ll just pick up on their own. But nobody said it was easy and if it’s easier just die. You say the effort it takes to get to May isn’t worth it. Nobody said it was easy and if it’s easier just die. And if the effort it takes to get to May isn’t worth it then neither am I.
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Trees 00:03
7.
Steamroller 02:31
Are we still talking? ‘Cause we’re not fucking now anyways. Just a matter of time until I blew you off. Please pick up your shit, there’s no room at my house anymore. My closets are full and I don’t give a shit. Don’t look so disappointed. And I don’t want it anyway, because the feeling’s gone. I threw your steamroller away, guess it’s not that important. So I’m an asshole, but I didn’t fuck this up. Are you really surprised that everybody knows? It got me away from you, please don’t call me again when you’re drunk. Your eyes can’t hide what your body does. Don’t look so disappointed. And I don’t want it anyway, because the feeling’s fucked up. I threw your steamroller away, guess it’s not that important. Woo Ooh. Woo Ooh Ooh Ooh. And I don’t want it anyway, because the feeling’s fucked up. I’m getting high now everyday and you think that you’re better. Yeah you think that you’re better? Don’t you? Fuck you, I’ll find a way.
8.
Well I’ve heard this one before, you really fucked up, apologize. But I can’t see straight when I look you in the eyes. When I last saw you I was lying on the floor. Burnt out and dried up and stepped on, I can’t breathe anymore.Whoa it’s not my fault I can’t relate. Whoa I won’t forget me this time. It’s all I’ve ever known, of your teeth as white as stone. They’re boring into me. If I was on my own I’d row the roaring seas to free my enemies. But you’ve killed all the mercy in me. When I first saw you I saw too much of me. Helpless on my knees I realize that I could never leave. Whoa it’s not my fault I can’t relate. Whoa I won’t forget me this time. It’s all I’ve ever known, of your teeth as white as stone. They’re boring into me. If I was on my own I’d sail the seven seas to spare my enemies. But you’ve killed all my mercy.
9.
SeaShip 02:28
Ships are sailing and I’m on a line as bait for sharks and orcas. But I know that it’s for the best, but what’s in it for me? ‘Cause I’ve been calling, calling, calling. Now you’re off the shelf, but what’s left for me? ‘Cause I was talking all about you. I thought you said you were waiting and so I lost it all. My head is humming again, I guess this is how it ends. You never said you were waiting so now I’m taking a fall. My chops are busted again, I’m sick of it all. I thought you said you were waiting and so I lost it all. My head is humming again, I guess this is how it ends. ‘Cause I was so disappointed and now I’m taking a fall. It’s a fucking bummer again, I am so sick.
10.
Smoke 'Em 02:17
Let me go so I can breathe, like when I was 17. I never thought I’d live to be so old and frail. Feel the ghost inside of me spreading like a sick disease. What ever happened to me living like a king? Let me fall apart, let me go to waste, I’m sick of all my headaches. Is there a reason left to fight after all the lies? You told me it was safe outside. Now I’m going on my own. Now I’m going on my own. I can’t believe the shit that I’ve seen while I was waiting here for you. I can’t relate, how can I change waiting on the world to lead the way? Whoa whoa whoa. When you’re in me I can’t breathe. What is it that you want with me? I’ll never fade away, never fall into your twisted oblivion. Your world view’s askew, now I’m turning blue choking on the ashes that remain. Whoa whoa whoa. When you’re in me I can’t breathe. What is it that you want with me? Now I’m going on my own. Now I’m going on my own.
11.
Skin Hotel 01:57
I’ll give you nothing, not because it’s all I ever had but because it’s the only thing I wanted more than you. The wood is wet but the tinder’s dry and kindling’s not for sale but we’ve got twist-off wine. In this hotel made of skin my pride’s for rent. Prime the pump until you’re empty and I’ll take, I’ll take, I’ll take. I’m not concerned with different streets ‘cause they still meet at 5 on the corner. The house was warmer back when I was making coffee, you volunteered at OMSI, made more than you’d ever earned. Woo.
12.
Spaceship 01:44
My feet are calloused and broken, the dust burns right down to my liver. Sasquatch is calling, he wants my leather. It’s kind of confusing. When I look out into the starry sky I see the Starship fuckin’ Enterprise with a thousand belly dancers on deck. And they’ve all got red shirts on. Ronald Reagan bought me a spaceship. Trickle down economics only works if you’re rich. I was dancing along until they stole that Huey Lewis song. Who ya gonna call? There’s no point in mounting a mutiny, we might as well die with the cruise control on. Full steam ahead, first star to the right, and straight on ‘til Graceland. Elon Musk privatized my spaceship. Starting from nothing only works if your parents are rich. They were laughing along until we stole that Bad Religion song. Fuck.
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released August 29, 2018

All songs written by Throw. Recorded, engineered and mixed by Chris Finster with Mike Ulysses

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